video from july 3rd - it was kind of a hostile weekend. i think it was the heat.

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but anyway saturday was the calm before the storm - i went with my dad to seeart in the streets...of course we had to load up on imagawayaki and i desperately needed some coffee. i tried a new place(well...new to me!) cafe dulce - i got so much more than i expected. the perfect vietnamese iced coffee(they use lamill roast) and a new app. the barista saw my polaroid iphone cover because i was taking pictures of the takeout cups(lamill cups are freaking awesome!!!!) anyway we got into this intense conversation about camera/video apps(i think my dad felt awkward standing there for so long haha) and i ended up buying 8mm right there on the spot. it is kind of kitschy - it is basically like hipstamatic but for video - you can choose filters and films, etc. but it was super fun. i played around with it in the video above...hence some of the weird pink sequences.

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i feel a little old saying this but geez little tokyo has changed a lot over the years. when i was a kid we would go whenever a relative visited and i would love eating the rainbow shaved ice, picking out manju at fugetsu-do, and most importantly, visiting the fountain in the center of the food court. i had a weird water complex as a child, i guess i still do. i freaking love waterfalls. you know how people say they could stare at the ocean for hours and hours? i feel that way about waterfalls or any kind of downward stream. when i was little i would make my own out of play-doh and then sneak into the garage and cover the model with plaster and pour water down for hours and hours. at some point i also dug a slanted trench in the the backyard and poured water down that too...this is what happens when you don't sign your kids up for extracurricular activities. anyway, that fountain in little tokyo is gone now and my dad and i sat and ate our treats on the patio that it has been replaced with.

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afterwards i went to a bbq off abbot kinney w/the new roommies(and loren) we brought beer and played around with quadcamera on the way over. i find something really amusing about this pic - it's like i'm trying to be the next awkward poster girl for blue moon or something :)

last night i also came to the realization that i am really obsessed with this homemovie thing. well i dont know if it is homemovie anymore because the video above has a lot of footage of strangers(or at least they were when i was recording!) i just see things sometimes that i know would look super cool as a video and can't help myself. ie saturday was the quintessential definition of a 4th of july bbq. while i was sitting there eating my grilled cheese that fleet foxes song was just blasting inside my head. i'm addicted.

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whoa super long post. i'll cut it off here.

yeah that happened.

image : courtesy of boei

slap : courtesy of albertscience

my body/brain are beyond confused right now. i have not been eating vegetables so i feel bruisy and malnourished. and i'm tired(get ready because this is another rant about the gre). i had everything painstakingly planned. i had actually written out a meticulous hourly schedule so i could take the gre, move, and be done with that hot mess in one short weekend. now i am in this bizarre, stressful, burnt out limbo and i want to just drop everything and go to graphic design school. i think the fact that i can't get a perfect score on a math test whose subject i tutor to my friend's 13 year old little sister is starting to seriously damage my self-esteem.

the new apt is really nice though and i am thoroughly enjoying living in a new area..even if it is just culver. last night loren and i walked to akasha and ate vegetables and quinoa and other delicious things.

this morning i stopped by the nursery to pick up a new planter for an idea i have. it involves moss and concrete and this purple clipping my dad picked up the other day. anyway, in other plant news : my succulents are sunburnt. poor guys. not used to that much exposure on their new deck. one day they will grow and look like this though:

we LOL a little too much so i covered them up to preserve the integrity of the conversation.

torn..

so lately i have been blogging a lot..but not here..

i started a tumblr a while ago - emlovescereal.tumblr.com and have been using that. i don't know why but for some reason using blogspot gave me this weird stagefright - i read so many amazing blogs everyday where the writing is so witty and the pictures so perfect. there is always some kind of inspiration and direction with each blog and i feel like i just ramble about stuff. something about tumblr is more relaxed, but also annoying. it is hard to format things the way i like and i don't really follow anyone there as much as i do on blogspot.

...i am also unsure about the name. i love white felt as my etsy name, but as a blog? it just added another layer of anxiety because maybe this should be more of a diy space on how i make the things i make..but that's a lot of time and plus i've been way more into video editing lately than headbands. ugh. last night i thought about making an emlovescereal.blogspot.com but then wouldn't that just add to the madness?

i wonder if anyone else regrets their blog name. it sucks because one of the things i love most about blogs is how you can go back months(or years) and see how much you've changed/evolved...

why my aunt joan is awesome.

loot from my aunt joans:

1. hand knitted arm warmers

2. tomatoes from the garden

3. succulent scraps – since I keep killing mine I’m not labeling this hobby as hoarding...but it is getting there.

4. cashmere, hand embroidered scarf from a trip she took to India.

5. striped lucky sweater from the mid 90’s – it is an xl and I love how it hangs off my shoulder.

my aunt joan goes far and beyond the job description of ‘aunt’. She has been present for all of my major life events. She was the first person to take me to Michaels. She bought me my first embroidery kit. She taught me how to bake and gave me leg warmers when I started ballet. Besides the standard ‘what’s new with work’ talk, we discuss pie crusts, succulents, and Martha Stewart. She is brash and strong and always sends me home with girly things we both love. She is my middle name and I don’t know what I’d be without her.

Today I attended her dog’s birthday party….and yes I was definitely present for all of little Rocco’s previous life events(duh…he IS my cousin). Mooch and rocky ate hamburgers while we ate fresh baked bread, salad filled with tomatoes from the garden and sweet potatoes only aunt joan has the recipe for. Then moochie ate rat poison and had to go to the vet(he’s okay though – didn’t eat enough to get hurt)

lately

i broke down and finally bought an iphone. ever since it has been a sea of instagrams, hipstamatics, and short films made off imovie. my new drunk activity is making online dating accounts while sitting on the bus going home and my primary use for google maps has been to find 99cent stores in hopes of finding cheap 35mm film.

i have been using the tumblr app(whitefelt.tumblr.com) to keep track of most photos but i feel like i should give this site more attention.